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04 July 2008 @ 10:24 pm
 
i need help with a decision...

i am going to buy some chuck taylors. and im torn between high tops and low tops. i will be getting the original black and white ones...

tell me what YOU think i should buy?!!?
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 08:09 pm
It's not all sparkle and glamour?  
Of course I don't own much clothing that isn't black, but I still had to mow the lawn and use the weed wacker. So, it was S.W.AT. black BDU's and an Evengelion shirt with combat boots. It came in handy with the freakish weed things that looked like lettuce meets Day of the Triffids.



And... if you need a score of choice sliced scallions, let me know!

 
 
04 July 2008 @ 05:23 pm
 
I  figured out how to share the paper I wrote.... I think... I know some of the transitions are really rough, but I think it works overall...
I'll warn those who choose to read that there are some very adult concepts, and a lot of triggers...
It should be readable here: http://www.keepandshare.com/doc/view.php?u=671926
 
 
Current Mood: shy, cautious, nervous... sick
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 06:32 pm
How To Tell My Mom  
I was diagnosed with Asperger's this past March after waiting a year to be seen at my university. I never told my family about my plans and I haven't told them since I got the diagnosis. I never gave telling my family much thought until I came home for the summer. As I learn more about myself and how Asperger's has effected it, the more I've begun to feel isolated.

I'm really close with my mom and lately I've been thinking about telling her. I don't like feeling like I have this huge secret I'm hiding. I'm not ashamed of who I am but every time I think about telling her I get really sick to my stomach. I just don't know how to deal with her reaction.

She knows I have problems with anxiety and that I take medication for it. Whenever I mention it though she always tells me that I should just go out and exercise more so I work off all my anxious feelings. I don't think she understands how involuntary the anxiety reaction is.

I want to tell her but I'm not sure how I'd approach it. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
 
 
Current Mood: worried
Current Music: Starsailor - Some of Us
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 05:47 pm
 
*silent scream of rage*

I'm not even going to try saying 'whhhy?!' because it'll just make me angsty. This is what happened.

My mom's birthday is the 4th of July. We had planned to go to my dad's company party for her birthday, since she really likes fireworks. I had said I would go, too.

I've been having a hard time in the last week or so, but I never said I did not want to go.

When I got up today, I showered, got dressed in patriotic colors, and have been sitting around the house with my shoes on waiting for us to leave to drive to the city.

When I commented to my mum that I was surprised she hadn't said anything about my clothes, it came around to her saying "Oh, you still want to go?"

Seeing as I had said nothing about not going... I was like, "Yes?", and she went "Well we thought you didn't want to go so me and dad decided to stay home."

They had said NOTHING ABOUT THIS TO ME.

Ahh!
 
 
Current Mood: annoyed
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 05:20 pm
 
so today i spent the 4th, cleaning out boxes at my parents house.  with no food.  :(  hopefully, my mom will be happy with what ive gone through and thrown for a while now. it seems i have to do this once a year and i keep throwing stuff out that i dont want to just to make her happy. these are my memories ya know?

anyways. im home. and im hungry.

we were gonna see the fireworks tonight at konkel park but, i dont think we want to be eaten by misquitos. so, home we stay.
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 02:01 pm
Oh, Canada. :D  
Welcome to Toronto

Landed early, customs took a little while, but we have arrived and are/were hanging out in our room (for quite a while now because the image above and others didn't want to upload right away, pesky things) at INDEXG B&B. Free wi-fi, and my phone won't be on/working because I didn't realize I had to talk to someone for them to turn on "WorldClass Service"... obviously no one is working at T-Mobile due to the holiday, so comments to journal entries and emails will be the best way to get in touch with me. (They also have pancakes and waffles for breakfast! ^_^ And we don't have to wake up super early for said breakfast. I love this place already.)

Heading done to Queen St. soon to find food and booze... also going to the liquor store.

Later on... around 8... Ciro's.

Happy 4th to those back home. Have a great party [info]carriemonster and [info]whippingboy!

Peace,
geek. ^_^
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 02:43 pm
Verbalizing  
Does anyone else's parents say that they're making excuses for their behavior when they try to tell them that the reason they do something is because of Asperger's?

If so, how do you deal with that?

Whenever I try to tell them that I can't help it, I don't feel like I'm making an excuse. It's more of me trying to convey to them the reasoning behind a behavior since I have trouble expressing myself with words.

Ideas? Tips? Suggestions?
 
 
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: "Shut Up" by Simple Plan
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 10:53 am
Three Cups of Tea by Greg Mortenson and David Oliver Relin  
My book group, Lit'n'Lattes. read the book Three Cups of Tea by Greg Mortenson and David Oliver Relin last month.  Here is the review. 


 

Next month is 1776.
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 01:33 pm
News Story: Autistic Boy Wanders From Camp; Mom Outraged  

I thought this was interesting and kind of pissed me off.

WBALTV.com

Autistic Boy Wanders From Camp; Mom Outraged

7-Year-Old's Mom Angry At Camp's Response To Incident

 

POSTED: 5:48 pm EDT July 3, 2008
UPDATED: 6:46 pm EDT July 3, 2008

 

The Howard County Department of Recreation and Parks is apologizing to an autistic boy's mother after the boy managed to wander onto a busy road from his summer camp.

 

 

Colin Hayes, 7, was playing hide and seek with his counselor at the Summer Sensations Day Camp at Veterans Elementary School in Ellicott City on June 23 when he wandered off. His mother, Kristen Detwiler, said she found him on Route 100 about a half-mile away from the camp.

 

"I turned the corner, and as soon as I had visibility on Route 100, Colin was walking on the shoulder toward traffic," she said.  (EDIT:  Route 100 is a very busy and dangerous road/almost highway, cars speeding very fast, at least, it is to me).

 

A motorist stopped the boy and Detwiler picked him up with police assistance. She said she was angry at the response she got from county Parks and Recreation officials who run the camp.

 

"I got out of the car and said, 'Help me understand why my son is on Route 100.' And no one had any answers for me," Detwiler said.

 

"The folks at Recreation and Parks did not follow protocol. They did not call police soon enough. They searched the school, and it took them a long time before they called police," said County Executive Ken Ulman, whose office oversees Parks and Recreation.

 

He said his office is taking full responsibility for the incident, calling what happened inexcusable.

 

"We're doing retraining with counselors to make sure this never happens again. We have the Autism Society of Howard County coming in to do training with program managers on July 15. We're really trying to be proactive," Ulman said.

 

Detwiler said the county's reaction is promising, but still thinks it's hard to get over. She said she's hoping other parents will hear her story.

 

"I'm hoping that by giving this information out, that Howard County residents understand there is strength in numbers by saying this isn't the way things should have been handled, that things change quickly," she said.

 

Ulman said he plans to speak with the director of Recreation and Parks when that person returns from vacation on Monday.

 

Summer camp officials said no one has been fired, but that Colin's counselor has been assigned to other duties. 

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Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 01:30 pm
The study and practice of psychology and Aspieness  
Well I went on a psychology career site and I started thinking how really cool it all sounded. I have noticed here and many other Aspies sites that many Aspies have studied psychology and I think that there would be some advantages to doing psychology and Asperger's.In fact I was reading that a major psychologist John Watson is said to have AS. It seems like I'm among many Aspies that have a big interest in the subject. I think that I would enjoy majoring in it and I could probably find a related career in it. Hell people say I'm a good therapist when I take that type of role. I attribute this to my analytical ability and my detached perspective. So there is definitely a place in psychology for Aspies and I am interested if anyone here has noticed the same thing. So has anyone studied psychology? How was it if you did? How well you did and enjoyment of the subject or the environment involved? Has anyone gotten into a psychology type of job? Be it counseling or applied or research I am interested.
Anyone?
 
 
Current Music: Flagpole Sitta - Harvey Danger
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 10:32 am
Happy 4th of July  
Made In AmericaHappy 4th of JulyIndependence DayQuilted Fireworks
   Made In America      Happy 4th of July     Independence Day      Quilted Fireworks  
Happy Birthday, USA
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 07:02 pm
From a neuropsychological perspective I have potential, the problem is to use it  
My boss recently said I was more intelligent then him, the neuropsychological investigation I made showed my IQ was 119, not Mensa, but not bad. The thing is that I had bad grades in school and it has been impossible for me to study at universities, I have never felt clever. I guess it means I have had potential that I haven’t been able to use. So to keep it simple, anyone else who has experiments the same thing, any tips on how I can develop my potential?
   Sorry but I also want to write down another similar thing from my life, then I was young I sometimes heard that I looked good, had a nice face. Maybe, but it didn’t helped me get a partner - or it didn’t helped me to get laid, depending of what kind of guy you want to see me as. Of course I understand that getting a partner involve much more then having a cute face, I’m not that stupid. However if many of us have problem using our potential on the dating market, it’s not hard to understand that I – and perhaps other of us – have problem using my prospective in other situations.
 
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04 July 2008 @ 09:30 pm
 
When I was young, I always knew I was different, but I didn't know what. I've heard that many people with Asperger's have felt that they were different since they were young, and were relieved to find that there's a label that explains their difficulties.

What did you feel was different about you when you were young?

(I'll lock this post if you want, just request k. :))
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04 July 2008 @ 06:54 am
A few questions  
One I am wondering if anyone here has a decent knowledge of medicaid and could tell if if it would cover fully a basically good fully physical.

I really don't know if it would or not. Also some basic idea of where I would go to have one would also be nice. I don't really have a doctor I see all the time. In fact before the last two times I went I didn't go at all for ten years.

Okay secondly my dad asked me if I wanted to go to this one reunion thing, that is his mom's(she's been dead since I was ten) side of the family.

The thing is, I don't really want to. I don't know ANY of them at all. I doubt any of them know me, or maybe even of me that much. I don't even know if THAT many of them know dad.

On top of that my sister refused to go, as she might have to work then but even if she doesn't I know she wouldn't go anyway. Mom won't go because she wants to make sure her legions of dogs are okay, and she doesn't know any of them either and is nigh social phobic in large groups.

Also me and dad don't get along to well as apparently he thinks I talk to damn much and should shut the hell up.

The thing is wherever it is is liable to be a decent half day's drive kinda deal with nothing to do BUT talk.

On the other hand the way dad seemed to put it is that they have excuses(mom and my sister) and I do not. I don't think they give a damn one way or another whether or not I am there, I mean none of them know me after all. I figure they are mostly indifferent. I mean I think there's a possibly me not coming would hurt their feelings but I don't think it's that likely.

I think it might annoy DAD if I don't go though... though as said it's liable to annoy him if I DO too because the hell else are you going to do a like 100 mile drive?

Also I have this sneaking feeling that I'll get all of these "What do you do" questions I don't want to have to answer. Also not talking much because I don't know any of them.

Also I seldom like large groups of people.

I don't know, it feels like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't to me.

I would highly appreciate some input.
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 06:14 am
TODAY!!!!  
EZ'S B-DAY!!!!

12515 W FOREST DR
NEW BERLIN
( just off 124th between lincoln and greenfield)

2PM

BRING SOMETHING TO SHARE AND SWIMMING SUITS!!!!
 
 
Current Location: work
Current Mood: drained
 
 
04 July 2008 @ 09:49 am
 
I've never posted in this community, so here I go :)

 
 
04 July 2008 @ 02:39 am
Hostility as a default  
I've started to realize that I'm so clueless at reading people that my automatic response is to be hostile. It's a coping mechanism I've had since I was about 10 and was struck violently in the face with the fact that I'm utterly clueless at understanding people's motives and intentions...I think of it as almost as me going into survival mode. I can't be naively trusting of everyone - that's how you get taken advantage of, like has happened in the past - so my only other option is to simply reject everyone.

Is anyone else in the same boat? How do you get out of it? :(
 
 
Current Mood: blah
 
 
03 July 2008 @ 10:24 pm
Autistic child denied chemo  
I'm frantically trying to post this to multiple places, and I apologize if this post seems somewhat incoherent.

ABC News (and other places) have reported the sad story of Jeremy Fraser, an autistic boy who is terminally ill with cancer because his mother neglected to give him maintenance chemotherapy.  With the maintenance chemo, his chance of survival would have been around 85-90%; now it's less than 10%.  His mother is under investigation, but was able to walk out of court without even having bail posted.  The courts of Salem, MA don't seem to value autistic lives very much.  I've blogged about this myself here.

I know that some religious nuts do the same thing because of wacky beliefs, but I'm infering that this is largely because Jeremy's mom couldn't handle him being autistic, or conciously or subconsciously wanted him dead.  After all, she didn't object to chemotherapy originally.  I presume that a Christian Scientist (or whatever) would have objected to any sort of medical treatment whatsoever.  It seems like this tragedy is the result of the popular conception that autistics are "better off dead."

I don't quite know how to adequately respond to this, but please tell others about this sad situation.
 
 
Current Mood: depressed
 
 
03 July 2008 @ 11:24 pm
 


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